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I got a little homesick, and figured what better way to visit my favourite city than through the photos on deviantART.

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My name is thespook.

For a while people knew me as Nicholas - or simply Nick. I hope those days to be behind me. No offence, but Nick was an asshole. lol. No, I'm still Nick. I just recognise thespook was me too.

As you might imagine, I have recently rediscovered that deep drive to create. It's shaking things up. My creative pursuits since I joined deviantart have been worthy experiences, but I feel it's time to do a sort of rebirth and see how things turn out this time. More illustrations and maybe some story telling, and less CSS jargon, though I still enjoy it on occasion.

I was born in Melbourne (collection link), Australia - but at the moment I'm living in Virginia, USA.

Don't be a stranger.

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alright... about that last journal.

Journal Entry: Wed Apr 16, 2014, 4:29 AM
So I must apologise for that last journal. I should have deleted it after all! :laughing:

The mistake I made was that I wrote a journal that was really me just working things out as I went. That's fine, but I have a 'thought journal' for that, and unloading all that text on you guys was a misstep on my part.

It makes me even more grateful to those that responded, and I'm glad rotane had the presence of mind to not read it all. But still, sorry.

It does lead into another topic I wanted to write about. And that's my re-connection with my inner story teller/writer. It's something I once enjoyed ...that depression killed. As it killed a lot of things that would have made me a better person.

TeresaClark said she watches me for the journals, and that's something others have said before too. That actually touches me. Boop. Even though depression killed my capacity to write from my mind, it didn't stop me from writing period and I guess that came through in my journals.

And now that I'm 'awake',  I'm turning the Google Doc 'thought journal' into a story of sorts. I wont go into details until I make concrete progress, but I'm basically taking personal events and conflicts and shaping them around a dark space opera kinda setting.

This story has been evolving in my head since I joined dA over a decade ago, but I just never knew what medium to tell it in. Then I found out about Twine - a framework for making 'non-linear narratives', choose your own adventure books > text adventures > ??? > Twine. It has many features text adventures lacked, and this allows me to do some very interesting things. Hopefully it translates to something people will find stimulating.

I've failed to complete a whole lot of projects on dA, and IRL - small and big. I never could figure out why, or what I could do differently. I couldn't see past the intense feeling of failure and regret, although I did not realise those were the emotions I felt and/or how to respond.

Now that my head is clear I really need to make this work. It's a kinda... licence test for life, if I can't finish this story I feel like I'm fucked. It's a dangerous gamble to put my sense of self on the line like that, but honestly, it's what I deserve if I want to find my place.

it's happenning everyone! thespook is back! for real this time! 

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:iconclassicsmile:
classicsmile Mar 28, 2014  Student Photographer
Thank you!
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:iconnaima-amjad:
Naima-amjad Dec 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Wonderful artwork
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:iconscarletwave:
Love your work, the technical and the not so much.  ^ ^
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electricnet Aug 27, 2013  Professional Interface Designer
Man, the birthday greetings are getting more and more fancy these days.

:P

I hope you had a good one man, regardless of the apathy! Long time no see!
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:iconthespook:
:manhug:

It's been a while, yeah. I haven't really changed much (aside from getting back into shape), or gone anywhere - unlike yourself! How's your adventures been?
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:iconelectricnet:
electricnet Sep 1, 2013  Professional Interface Designer
Pretty good, I've been a lot of places around the world, and I still have plans for more! :w00t:

Yet somehow, I always end up coming right back here at least once a year. :lol:
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:iconthespook:
I knew those monthly polls were run by a bot! I knew it! :lol:
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Astrikos Aug 20, 2013   General Artist
charo˙mena genÚthlia
:love: :cake: :heart: 
Enjoy it! You are amazing! 
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:iconthespook:
Amazingly good at sleeping through my birthday :lol:
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:iconastrikos:
Astrikos Aug 21, 2013   General Artist
:la: Nice! xD
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:iconangelica-lily:
Hey ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY~Mr. The Spook!::iconhardlaughplz:
:iconcakepinkplz::iconhappybirthdaysignplz:PartyHAPPY BIRTHDAY:iconhappybirthdaysignplz::iconcakepinkplz::iconcaekplz:Party:iconcakelickplz::iconcake3dplz::iconcake3dplz::iconcake3dplz::iconcakelickplz:Party :iconcaekplz:


Woohooooo!It's your SpotlightbirthdaySpotlight NICK !
Enjoy your cake :iconrainbowbummiecakeplz:with lots of friends & family! Community; what deviantART is all about! Party

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:iconmusicnotesplz:Singing Happy Birthday to you...... Singing:iconsparklesplz:
:iconsparklesplz:Singing Happy Birthday to you...... Singing:iconmusicnotesplz:
:iconmusicnotesplz:Singing Happy Birthday dear Nick Singing:iconsparklesplz:
:iconsparklesplz:Singing Happy Birthday to you...... Singing:iconmusicnotesplz:

May  all of your Birthday wishes
come true,  :iconpinksparklyheartplz:
 
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:iconthespook:
:D

Look at all the emotes! :faint:
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:iconangelica-lily:
I truly hope that was your happiest Birthday yet!

How are you and your lovely wife ?
Did you do anything special ? I hope
you take pictures of everything. You should
post them on here.
 
I hope there weren't TOO many emotes. I didn't
mean for them to annoy you.
It's just that I wish I could give you a gift , and that's
as close as I could get to one...

I'm so sorry that I haven't had a chance to answer .
But , I haven't left my brothers side for about a month.
That's around when we found out his time was very limited .
So you see , i wasn't ignoring you you or forgetting your
message. I didn't mean to be rude.
please forgive me? 
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:iconthespook:
We're doing fine. Like my journal let on, I don't make a big deal about my birthday. I actually slept through most of it :)

My response was in good fun, don't worry. Like fainting when all your friends spring a surprise birthday on you :lol: I don't get many userpage comments these days, so I'll take what I can get :hug:

Sorry about your brother. I've lost many family members in the last seven years. Separated from them as I am, being in the US and they in back in Australia, I haven't had the chance to see them one last time. So don't worry so much about implied internet obligations. Even if your situation were more pleasant, I wouldn't have had a problem with it. 
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:iconblakkreign:
BlakkReign Aug 20, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
:eager: by darkmoon3636  :cake: Happy birthdAy spook! :party:
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:iconthespook:
Thanks - surprised to still see you around, sup these days?
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:iconblakkreign:
BlakkReign Sep 2, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
The past few years, been trying to sell my tshirt designs. Found a part-time job, and been busy with that too. I visit dA often, just not as often as I once did.
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Anoya Aug 20, 2013   Photographer
Happy birthday and early happy birthdAy! :party: :cake:
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catluvr2 Aug 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Have a spooktacular birthday! :la:
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bubbIies Aug 20, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
happy birthday! 8D
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